Where I've Been

I go back and forth sometimes between being a very private person (total introvert) and an expressive person. Recently I've been the former as we have been healing from the tragedy that struck the Phoenix Police Department on March 3th. Last week we were sitting on the couch at Joe's parents scrolling through the phone for friends to call and catch up with. As Joe thumbed down the contact list John Hobbs' name remained. Over 2 months later I am still saddened to tears, my heart is heavy, and every day I tell Joe to be safe and that I love him before he leaves for work. I don't worry any more than I did before, but I make sure to say what I will never know to be my last words until it's too late to have said anything else.

We've also been very stressed out about the political goings on of the PD lately. The city is broke and after not hiring for years, taking pay and not returning it, raising health insurance premiums, eliminating some of the benefits for officers who saved their sick time through to retirement, they're after more of the officers' money. There are horrible websites out there that claim legitimacy and make it look like our officers can spike their pensions upwards of hundreds of thousands of dollars and it's not true, but the citizen's believe it because it looks reliable. They just have no clue and it makes me sad that truth doesn't prevail over money.

So, without sounded like we've been depressed over here, I know I have been more quiet than usual as I sit on so many things to say without the brainpower or motivation to organize my thoughts into anything coherent. But we are all OK, we are getting back on our feet as life starts to propel us forward into some pretty big new places. Stay tuned for a few big posts that are coming up.